Come Closer to the Fire. . .

It did not take long for me to make a connection between the warmth and connection I experience when I am making that beautiful full "YES" breath. Yes to breathing life in fully, Yes to letting go of what is out of my control/what is no longer needed. When I breathe a connected breath - I feel connected to myself. I notice I feel more deeply connected with others, and my tendency to keep myself separate and in that pain of separation, disappears. There are many layers, but I'll keep it simple, here.

Connecting with others who, through their relationship with their own breath and heart beat, feels like coming in from being too long and too deep in the woods, to a nice warm fire. I feel fed. I find that in that place there is nothing else I really need - and I stop filling my life up with other "wants" that don't really feed me.

It's a journey. . . It has taken me years, and on occasion I still find myself there - where I sequester myself off into my own world of stories, beliefs - and then I come home to the breath, to myself, to my family of life. This may sound foreign in our world of dysfunctional families and disconnect, misunderstandings that never find resolve, hurt feelings that never heal. But something simple as my own breathing changes all of that. Hard to wrap the mind around. But I experience it like being in love. Yep, it's that good.

What would that be like for you? What would it feel like to be completely free to give and receive love and not feel the need to defend it?

Just Today. . .

I choose the strong moments, the powerful times in my life, for creating an intention around my heart's desire. This is like making use of the wind to power my sailboat in the direction of my intended destination. There is not much more I can do about getting to my destination, other than being in the present moment, watching, listening, feeling for any changes in the current of the water, of the wind - and just sailing that boat. It is being in that present moment, as it appears in my life, that I am guided to take whatever steps I need to take, whatever shift in direction I need to take. A vision of my destination, and just today, just this moment, is all that I need to know on my journey. I don't need to know how/when/what/why of any potential "maybes" that could show up on my journey. A basic understanding and knowledge is helpful. But, once I am in the middle of the ocean, and something shows up - I have my compass, my know-how, my guidance, and mostly trust in the process that I'll do what I need to do, when I need to do it.

Upcoming Breathwork Workshops

I want to take this time to put in a "plug" for the upcoming Therapeutic Breathwork workshops held in Durham, NC. An Intro will be held in Durham on 3-12-2010, an all-day workshop titled "Breathe Your BEST LIFE!" will be in Durham, NC on 3-13 to 3-14, 2010

This workshop is extra-special because the founder and director of Power of Breath Institute, Jeremy Youst - will be leading the workshop with Jamie Crockett and myself assisting. This is a way that we do a "giveaway" toward the larger community of Power of Breath Institute toward greater breath awareness. And, everyone loves the Light that is "Jeremy" - so everyone benefits! Please pre-register at your earliest convenience to reserve your space!

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I've found a new love. . .

So, I'm always looking for ways to blend my love affair with the natural world and my creativity - because they are indeed connected, or rather one in the same. It also needs to be fun. Quite "accidentally," I think I may have found my new love.

I purchased my oldest son a Flip video camera for Christmas last year, and they were such a good deal that I bought one for myself. Being the busy and multi-tasking individual that I am, I never got around to even removing it from the package until about 3 weeks ago. It is small and compact, so it's really easy to carry in your purse (especially since I finally surrendered to carrying a big hobo-type purse) - and so now it goes with me everywhere. Very handy!

My opportunity to finally get to use the camera, came on a trip down to Denver last weekend to see a concert my husband had arranged for us, Celtic Woman at Red Rocks Amphitheater - and I have to tell you, the whole thing was kismet.

I've lived in Colorado for most of my life, and have never been to Red Rocks. Not for a concert, not to see the Red Rocks, none of it. How did I miss such a spectacle of beautiful Grandfather stones?? Perhaps the timing was in when I could fully appreciate them, who knows.

So, we go to this magical concert, which is perhaps the highest vibrational concert that has been there in awhile (perhaps ever), it happens to be their last night on the tour, and their 100th concert. The weather was perfect, our seats were in perfect view of the stage and the beautiful backdrop of Denver, the sky, and the expansive green landscape, which then turned into a scenery of lights. It was truly incredible. I had several moments of being fully awake as a Soul in physical form witnessing this reality, and was so completely moved. Not surprisingly, the performers stated that Red Rocks was absolutely their most favorite venue. Perhaps they say that at all the concerts, who knows -- but I am biased, and believe they were telling the truth!

After the concert, I make it a point to say that we need to return the next day, just to be in this Red Rocks Park. So we return, I get out my new Flip Video Camera, and start filming. Now, the outcome of my filming is amateur at best (and the camera itself does not have the greatest stability control), but it was so fun to put it together, and to also add some of my favorite music. Something about moving film captures what a still photo cannot. . . and I like that, coupled with profound music. Yet another love of mine. As a breathworker, choosing music for a session is crucial to that individual's process. I tune into my guidance every time, to choose which music is appropriate for each session.

Recently, I'd had a couple of readings: one from a Human Design System consultant, who told me that I could be powerful in some work with film, particularly documentaries. Hmmmm. . . very interesting, indeed! And the other reading was from a fellow Evolutionary Astrologer who specializes in astro-local and astrocartography (the astrology of place). He told me that imagery was going to be a very important part of my creative process. I'm a writer, but usually my writing is pure information, and it just doesn't really scratch the itch.

I have a couple of people who are veterans in the film industry reappear in my life recently, not to mention a couple of old friends who went to school for film. I always pay attention to what is around me, in terms of some cues I may be seeing. . .

That said, I don't see this new love as being anything I do for a living at any point. I'm 44 years old, and I can't imagine that it would make sense. But I sure do intend to continue learning more about it and most of all having FUN with it!

You can view the films on my Facebook profile, or they are also uploaded into YouTube, under Breathify of course!

I don't really know exactly why I am posting this other than I'm excited to share that it's never too late to discover something new about yourself. It's never too late to find another person, place or thing to love, or another way to love. And I hope that I can relay that to every person I come in contact with.

Making Choices

I've been taught, and have found for myself, that there are really two choices in any given situation. And yeah, yeah. . .  we know it's about choosing Love or choosing Fear.  But who is digging a little deeper to find exactly what that means, beyond a concept?  Sometimes what looks like Love is really Fear, and what looks like Fear is really Love!  And why is that?  Because those are just mental constructs.  

What am I getting at?  I choose based on what feels good, and what hurts.  Now this is interesting, because there are an awful lot of us walking around, myself included, that seem to keep choosing what hurts -- be it a situation, circumstance, or at the root of it all: a thought.  Life really isn't that tough to figure out, when we recognize it does come down to choosing what feels good vs. what hurts, but we are enculturated at a very deep level to choose pain over and over and over again.  "No pain, no gain," right?  Maybe in the past.  But right now, we're writing new rules for this game we're playing, because, gee -- it could be fun to do something different!  

I've heard a saying that we are geniuses at feeling good, joy, love, pleasure, abundance, etc., because we have so thoroughly opened up the polarity of suffering, fear, hate, resentment, lack, etc. and have experienced it to its utmost degree.  And the degree to which we have experienced something, is the degree to which we are capable of experiencing its polarity.  So, yes, we all made the choice for suffering, for what hurts, in our time -- but it wasn't for naught.  When I've been radically present, non-judgmental and unconditionally loving to myself in a time of suffering, I've come out of it as if I were the Phoenix rising from the ashes, and have experienced complete bliss.  It does not mean I have to purposely create suffering, in order to have that experience.  Life, and Love, finds us, only all of the time.

I've been watching my world, our world, and noticing the signposts. . .  the tension of the bow is to such a degree that we can barely stand it, and this means that we are -- in this moment -- creating something magnificent, and it is about to be released!  In all my years as a breathworker observing the pattern and cycle of intent, action, allowance and integration, I recognize this place we are in.  Many of us feel so intense in one form of another, that it can seem unbearable.  It's helpful to have the tools to ride the wave.  

You're not really much of a surfer without a surfboard!  My surfboard, is really simple; I can take it anywhere and meet life head-on with it, in any situation -- it's self-contained, easy to access, no confusing buttons or knobs -- it's my own breath.  And when I use it in my daily life beyond the hour-long blow-out sessions -- as a foundational part of daily practice, I recognize that it's all about one inhale at a time, one exhale at a time.  One step at a time.  Even in intense circumstances.  They are mostly intense because our minds are already trying to create a story around what is happening -- strategizing how to not experience it, instead of our deepest self taking command and saying "yeah, I hear ya. . . but I want to see the movie play out for myself, just because I really don't know how it's all going to go."  And don't we love suspense?  Isn't that why they become such blockbusters, if the writer (creator - you) has done a really good job?  We love the suspense part of the film!  Enjoy the ride. . . 

"The universal support system for each of us is our breath. It is the breath that

connects us to our point of origin, the Sovereign Integral state of consciousness that

is our pure state of being."  James

In the Flow. . .

I am always fascinated by what shows up in life; what causes me to redefine my preconceived notions of what it is I think I know or how what I think I know is supposed to look.

I have had an opportunity placed before my feet, that helps me utilize skills and talents that come effortlessly. I love using the power of the internet. I love that it's a representative of the matrix of consciousness, for better or worse, and that if there is a piece of information that I don't know about, I can access it and run the information by my own discernment and guidance as to its validity.  I have access to information, people, places, etc., that I otherwise would not have.  And, this is simply a model of what exists in our own potentiality as co-creators.  It simply mirrors the fact that we have the power to access whatever it is we need to move through this gameboard of life.

That said, there is the concept of the Law of Abundance or the Law of Flow, which covers all areas of abundance that brings about emotional, mental, physical and spiritual well-being.  We know about the Law of Attraction.  But there is also the Law of Flow.  In these economic times, we are all being given a choice as to whether we are going to respond in a way that is fear-based, which typically means we contract and stop engaging in the flow by buying into the story of lack -- or we can have the courage to continue to engage in that flow.  If we remember that money is simply energy -- another way to participate in creative life force energy -- to really embrace this energy and play with it can be fun.  

The breath always shows me the truth in this.  Life force does not happen only on the inhale.  It happens on the flow of the inhale and the exhale -- receiving and giving, taking in and letting go.

I have managed to reconnect with a couple of old friends that I never thought I'd see again, and in addition connect to others through others that I know!  Sound confusing?  This is yet another manifestation that has shown up in the last couple of weeks, that I am reeling in amazement from.  Some of the people I have become connected to recently have in some way or another been connected to me either directly or indirectly -- and it's all coming full circle.

How is this happening?  In a way that I never would have imagined. . .  through an income-producing opportunity, and one whose foundation is all about totally helping and supporting each other in whatever way we can!  The "what" doesn't matter!  I get to engage in an interesting manifestation of "play" of Oneness that gives me access to:

• Engaging in the Law of Flow -- Participating in simply exchanging an energy called "money," as a means of activating and maintaining flow, which spill over to all other areas of my life and the ways in which I experience abundance.
• Engaging in an opportunity to connect with and bring Light to as many people as possible -- It "looks" like we are doing one thing, that's the superficial aspect, but we are really doing another, which is connection .  IF that is our intention, which is very important to stay in integrity with.  If my intention is connection and bringing the activation of the Law of Abundance and the Law of Flow to the consciousness of others by simply being myself, then the "how" of it does not matter.
• Observing the circular pattern of Oneness -- by noticing all the ways "players" in my theatrical play come in and out of the scene -- perhaps those that were simply "extras" now come into my experience as primary players!  How fun is that??
• Most importantly, what piqued by interest, is a number:  3.  The foundation of this interesting little opportunity, is rooted in that number.  Three (3) is connected to the Law of Return, or the Threefold Law, or the Law of Reciprocity.

So, with these ideas of "where I'm coming from" in my intention as a co-creator on this Earth, I am curious as to who might be interested to hear more about how to play with me!  Let's have fun!